Gloomy Friday
It's hard to make a decision. I don't know how long she has kept this thought in her mind, or maybe she hasn't. She came here with hope and ambition and kept trying to make a difference. She tried so hard but it turns out nothing. All she can do right now is going back to somewhere she fled before. I think it's the last thing she wants to do. Maybe throwing back to that time in that place, she finds out that there is something there worth fighting for. Trying to grab that hopeless hope is better than getting a decent job which leaves her disappointment. Actually, I should have seen it. I should have felt it--the sorrow in her eyes, the uncertainty she has about the future in every conversation we have. I didn't realise how stressful and confused she was. I didn't know she was struggling for an answer which did not even exist. I thought it was not a big deal. I thought she would make it. I am sad deep down inside. I should have been there for her. And now she has made a choice. I should have been happy for her. She's got an answer. There is nothing more important than having a goal, right? From the bottom of my heart I want her to stay. I can beg her to stay. But how am I supposed to do to make her stay if I am not that sure about my job, my future?
I'm not gonna see you out, but I wish you all the best.
Really hope to see you again someday.
My dear friend
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